| i want to thank every one of you who prayed for us during this recent ordeal with our daughter. she is doing very well. she went back to school yesterday, a half day on the front end and went a half day today, starting later in the day. she has been showered with God's love in the form of prayers, gifts [a lot of her friends, friends of ours and our dear families], and cards. We have been showered, as well, with emails, blogs [thanks you wonderful bloggers!], cards, and calls.
i am wrestling, i trust in a good way with our Heavenly Father. With all that has happened to dear friends who have lost children, friends who have lost friends, friends who are battling cancer, members of the body of Christ burdened by one thing or another, i wrestle with God's goodness towards us. usually the question, 'why me, Lord' is reserved for suffering. my seems to be in the midst of such profound positive answers to prayers, the prayers of so many faithful, earnest, righteous friends. God has seen fit to have spared our daughter; she has not only her life but her eyesight and her heart is tender toward Jesus like never before.
why? there is no answer quite like the one Job discovers by chapter 38 wherein which he experiences the greatness and might of God in His Sovereign Rule and Reign and just covers his mouth and wants to repent in dust and ashes. i have suffered so little, my wife a bit more with doing so much hands on care for R while she suffered and recovered, and certainly our daughter suffered greatlly, quite a bit still to go but doing so well. her Job-esque encounter was so short by comparison to this patriach of the old testament. yet, we just cover our mouths and repent of our self-centeredness knowing we have so much still to repent of!
even R has said: daddy, i am so glad Jesus died for my sins because struggled with God while i was in the worst of it in the hospital. she struggled yet has repented so beautifully...how honoring to the Lord He has enabled her to be!
repentance is all that makes sense. gratefulness comes to mind, too, as an important response. but repentance stands out. God is God and does not answer to any of us; yet, he patiently deals with our musings and consternations. He is awesome and all i think i ought to do is cover my mouth in reverance.
i think i will do just that now :-O |
